As I am sitting her waiting for my sister to arrive so we can work on arrangement details for my Grandmother's service, I am feeling a wave of emotions come over me from time to time. I am not sure from one moment to the next if I am angry, upset, hurt or if I just need a good cry. My emotions and thoughts run the gambit from my feelings about her passing, her, death in general, how fragile and fleeting life is, how others impact you and your feelings, why do I feel deeply about some things and other do not, but in other situations they feel deeply and I feel nothing. My mind is racing at a very intense speed this morning.
I have done things to occupy it. Got dressed. Put away dishes. Stripped the bed and put new sheets on. Put a load of laundry in. Folded and put away a few things from a load yesterday. Kitchen all cleaned up. It is very quiet in the house. Only the dryer running right now, sigh from my dogs every once in awhile and the keys of my computer as I type - that is it. While I see the flicker of the candle I lit for my Grandmother. It is cold and gloomy outside. This is feeling like it will be a weird emotional ride sort of day.
I am thinking I NEED A GOOD CRY!
~SeekSoulBalance!
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